Summer of Freedom

Earlier today I sat my very last exam of my high school career. The past 6 years of my life that I have shared with the same crazy bunch of people is well and truly over and I don't really know how I feel about it. I made a post about 3 weeks ago on the night before my last day of high school and I thought that I would follow that up with a little something on the eve of my last exam. 

It's always a very strange feeling when exams are over, you have a years worth of knowledge that you no longer require and a body so stressed out you feel like your brain is about to liquidate and run out your ears (gross!). The end of exam season always signifies a new beginning but the only new beginning I have ever encountered has been the start of a new school year, but obviously this is not the case this time. 

I think the biggest thing is that I don't quite know what to do with myself. For the past few years generally all of my free time has been filled with homework, studying, worrying about homework and studying or procrastinating to avoid homework and studying. I have none of that now. It feels like I have nothing to work towards in a way which is an unsettling feeling as if you have been following my blog for a while you will know that I almost always set goals to aim for. I don't have any goals at the moment. 

In some ways I feel like that is a good thing, that I can just live a little. Just be. But on the other hand I have the knowledge that at 9am tomorrow morning I am headed into work where I will be 5 days a week for the next 4 months. In some respects I feel like I will just be watching the summer pass me by as by the time I get a day off I just need to relax a little after a hectic week and have no desire whatsoever to go looking for adventures. 

I want to make a list, a summer bucket list of sorts. I used to do this when I was younger, make a colourful list in a pretty little notebook of all the things I wanted to accomplish over my 6 week break from school that inevitable ended up gathering dust under my bed somewhere. This year I want to check off a few things before I go off to University in September. Am I being over assumptious? 100% yes. Of course I am. But I'm damn well going to try.

Ask me now what I want to put on this list and I will tell you I have no idea. This wasn't even what I had planned for this post but let's just roll with it. I shall keep you updated (I promise I will this time) on my summer goals and maybe even write a little blog post on how each of them turns out. We will just have to wait and see how everything turns out.