All things come to an end

I am writing this on the night before my final day of high school. Today I had my last taught periods in the school that I have been going to for the past 6 years and with the friends I have known for the last 13. Tomorrow I will go back into the school for one final time as a student to say goodbye to teachers who have taught me for 3 years in some cases and experience my first taste of a graduation ceremony of sorts. It's a bittersweet feeling.

As many of you will know, high school didn't hold many fond memories up until this year. Before I reached my final year in the hell hole I couldn't wait to leave and in some respects I am still excited at the prospect of this time in my life coming to an end. This year however has seen me change a considerable amount. I am much more confident in myself and I have found it a lot easier to make friends. I have gone to having only two close friends so around 20 or so people that I feel completely comfortable around which for me is a shocker. This year has also made me more sure of what I want to do in the future and for that I will never forget it.

The idea that this time tomorrow, actually in around 15 hours from now, I will no longer be a high school student is terrifying. Yes, I still have exams to sit starting next week before I'm finally free but officially I will no longer be in the education system. The next taught class I have will be a lecture in September that I will be paying five grand a year for. That's whats scary. Moving to Glasgow and leaving everything behind is finally starting to feel real and it is making me second guess myself. Not about moving but about whether I'm ready to move five hours away from everything that I know.

I think my main issue is that this year I have become comfortable. I have expanded my previously minuscule comfort zone, occasionally still stretching the walls, but the thought of having to leave it scares me. I'm worried that when I'm no longer in this bubble of comfort I will no longer feel as secure and go back to my old ways of constant anxiety and never ending worrying. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm scared to leave school as I'm unsure as to whether I've actually changes or whether I've just become comfortable in the school environment. But I guess its time to find out.

I have made plans with friends for over the next few months in order to ensure I do keep in contact with them and have things to look forward to. For example, tomorrow after graduation me and some friends are driving to the nearest city, around an hour away, with a massive playlist of roadtrip music to sing along to and the intentions of going to see Age Of Ultron and go get some pizza. It's good to have things to look forward to I find that it helps me move forward and not get stuck in how I'm feeling at the time.

I guess I should go and get on with preparing my outfit for tomorrow since we are all dressing up, but I just thought I would write something quick so that I can look back on it in the future, maybe when I'm in uni to remind myself of how silly I was being, or later when I'm preparing for my next graduation which will be more exciting than this one. Well, wish me good luck for tomorrow, I just hope I don't cry to much and look like a crazy person.

My little European adventure

So if you've been following this blog for a little while then you will know that at the end of last month I was going away on a trip away to Belgium and Paris for a few days. I've compiled some of my favorite photos here to share with you, and you can find more over on my Instagram page. 

One of the war grave sites we visited in Belgium. Witnessing the vast expanse of graves, of which many held no names, was such an incredibly moving experience.

First view of the Eiffel Tower from the bus, my favorite moment of the trip. It was such an incredible moment being able to witness this monument that is adored all over the world. I just feel so honored to have had the chance to visit it never mind go up it. 

My favorite building in Paris, the Notre Dame. We unfortunately only got to witness it from the boat while on our river cruise but it is certainly something that I look forward to visiting at a later date. I am already mentally planning another trip to Paris.

Diksmuide, Belgium. This was the cute little town that we stayed at whilst in Belgium. It's such a pretty traditional village to wander around.

The Arc de Triomophe in Paris.This is as close as we got due to time restrictions but I cannot begin to describe how beautiful it is in real life.This photo does not do it justice.

The view of some of the pretty buildings while going
on the boat down the Seine river in Paris. Even the houses in Paris were incredibly beautiful.

Again, a photo from when we were on the
river boat cruise.

So as you can see I had a brilliant time in Belgium

 and Paris. I'm limited as to what photos I can 

post as most include photos of my friends 

and I don't feel comfortable sharing those without 

their consent but if you want to

 see more head over to my instagram. 

Disneyland Paris!!

Life Update: April 2015

Just a quick post to apologise for the complete lack of posts over the past few weeks. Life has a habit of getting crazy every so often and this has just been one of those times where I have needed some time to actually come to terms with what is happening.

I have been inundated with school work recently and that coupled with work has left for very little time to allow myself to come to terms with the fact that my school days are numbered and very soon I will be moving out. (more in a blogpost to follow shortly) I was also away from home for over a week at the tail end of last month, again I will be writing a blog post about my travels pretty soon and it shall include all the photos from my little European adventure. 

Along with that I have been in a massive reading slump that I have only just managed to drag myself out of thanks to some pretty damn good books that I've been reading, and it goes without saying that I will also be making a blog post about them in the near future too.