I'm going to put it simply, I was absolutely terrified about moving away from everything that I have ever known. I had spent the past five years dreaming of escaping my little comfort bubble up north but as it got closer and closer to moving day I began to loose all faith in myself and my decisions. I began to love the podunk little town that I used to see as a cage that stopped me from going out there and living my life, and I became much closer to my parents who I had previously had a rather strained relationship with. I didn't think that I could do it and for the last month of living at home I began to dread the inevitability of leaving.
The only thing that kept me going was the fact that Glasgow is the only Uni in Scotland that offers my course. I had no option but to move here. There was no option just to move an hour away for me, it was either move to the big scary city or not do the course I wanted to do. I honestly believe that if I had planned on studying anything else I would not have ended up moving. And so far, moving here has been the best thing that I have ever done for myself.
I have always been a very introverted person and I always will be, but as a result of that I tend to get myself comfortable and then never stray away from what and who I know. Down here that isn't an option. I'm not a really big fan of drinking, but at Uni that's how you get to know people so its just what you have to do. Every night since I have been down here I have been to at least 2 flat parties, which is massive for me. I would never usually entertain the idea of going to a party where I know nobody but it doesn't seem quite so scary here.
Saying that only one out of the 3 nights that I have gone out resulted in drinking, but that's just a personal choice more than anything. And every night bar the first, I have been back in my tiny home by 12pm ready to snuggle up and watch some netflix for a little while, but again that's just me. If I was going out getting bladdered every night and not getting in until 4am I would be rather concerned about myself.
So in my opinion, I am doing pretty well so far. I have made a good few friends in the last 4 days that I have been down here and had plans to meet up with someone most afternoons, whether its to do a bit of shopping or to chill in someones flat with a pizza it's all coming along quite well. It's still very lonely, and yesterday I spent a good 3 hours contemplating buying a train ticket to head back up home for a few days, which I am sure will happen quite regularly, I succeeded in convincing myself that if I went home that I wouldn't come back and that I am capable of doing this.
